Hi. Thanks for readng my blog!

today i had tuiton =.= i feel super super bored of basically everything that has to do with pen and papers.at least binomial theorom was fun la...... NOT!!!!!!!!

might be going to hang with joseph later, him being in singapore and all. but cant really find other people~ dang band! lol.

so why does joel always feel lonely and always feel like he might have done something wrong? well because in primary school and sec 1-3, he was a loser with no real life and was pretty much awkward and friendless. in sec 4 he joined a very 'special' group of frens and got a sense of belonging and hence matured jus a lil. but the traumatisation of childishness haunts him sometimes. therefor in certain situations Joel is unusually awkward and cannot be as 'smooth' as some of the guys. for example wen jie. who until now i have not taken his number for some reason.

so yeap thats the story of my real loser life. so maybe ill talk abt my fren sheqal. in GP class he is my darling. in case u do not know. im not gay. nor am i bisexual. its just a for fun thing. o btw he is not gay either. so we r pretty tight. in rugby esp during training i recieve tonnes of help frm him. thats why i treasure him so. hes just this super cool guy whu u cud squeeze when u r feeling down. and if anyone hates him come and find me. ill give u someone new to hate =D

recently i started messaging her jus a lil bit. i think she kinda. gets the hint i care for her lots. i dunno. i dunno how im feeling. to tell u the truth i didnt even like her until people started suggesting. i dunno. i just am simply way too confused right now. she tells me shes stressed. i think im worse off. but thats life i guess. but i guess noone could ever love me. im just simply too annoying. like ezra! haha... good times good times....

so i guess this is it for now. stay cool ok? yes all of u =.= including jaz if u happen to be reading.
stay cool stay awesome and thanks for reading!

so more today. its pretty much ok. but she doesn't reply anymore, we used to be so close, i have no idea whats goin on with her. i think i shud have never tried even to get close i guess. its my own fault. my friends are really cool though, wish i had friends liddat earlier but i guess thats life. don't get me wrong secondary school frens! i love u all! well most of u.....

perhaps i didn't have frens liddat earlier cos i was immature... i will prolly nvr know. haha. its a pain having to see her and not know what is going on. i feel like bashing my head in sometimes because of that. no idea why. and im rambling i know. but to those who don't like it im sorry but its my blog=.=

am i overtly nice? i dont even like fighting with people. not even arguing when they wronged me. i just wanna forget it. take for example that day. Jas was totally out of line when i was climbing the stairs and she said" joel ur not climbing ur tumbling up the stairs" its not like she was jasmine or anling =.= i dont even remember her dang surname.... how could she say something liddat to a stranger?but i just let it go tho i felt like punching something.

don't get me wrong. im not a gentleman, lol im the opposite. talking about that i shud ask jasmine to stop helping me even if i ask. im feeling abit guilty abt that LOL. but shes a great friend. they ALL are. haha.

beenting looks great in grey contacts. hoped i emphasised myself enough to her. anling looks totally normalin short hair.... i dunno why i keep teasing her?maybe cos its like an instict and Jasmine looks much better in contacts! haha. maybe they will see this and be like o yea he told me. wen jie is really eccentric! but more of the kind that keeps u guessing instead of the kind that is wierd. yuan sheng is pretty cool except for the occassional bout of childishness. Vino is quiet, at least to me, but i think shes awesome. some people i cant mention simply because of the fact i don wanna play politics in our class to such a degree. but i do understand that my friends have very valid points and i respect that.

well i guess enough rambling haha. thanks for reading my first real post. thanks guys

After slaving in front of the dang com i finally got the blog up. ok. U may ask wassup with all the emo url and title and the giant contrast with the skin and stuff. Well thats me.... i guess im a mild schizophraniac. hate me for it, love me or it, whatever.
i totally didn't appear in school today under the pretext of having a tummy ache haha. it was fun but a day totally burned. HAIZ.