Saturday, November 21, 2009

well. i would blog abt our class chalet but beenting seems to have a really detailed one abt their days and nights. just that instead of cycling i just slaked. lazy i know.

it was fun. lots of laughter, a lil bit of tears and bucket loads of puke. this is a real class chalet my friend. not the crap we have in sec sch.

i realised there was no1 to call when i was drunk. cudnt care less. didn cry at all this time. i'm getting bttr now. feelings and emotions are a blur bck to wht i used to be.

perhaps this is wht i needed.

aft tht was rest then ktv wit weitat & gang. just tonnes of stuffs.

love,
Joel

4:38 PM

Thursday, November 12, 2009

GUESS WHAT!!!!

I totally have no social life anymore. stuck at home today staring at the wall. well not really. i had my friend, the tv. everyone seems to be stuck in their thing nowadays. kinda like sec sch now. but like whatevs man, at least this time its abit diff. for reason not many ppl know.

I'm trying my hand at writing a song. the lyrics is what im doing. tht is the easy part. melody is gonna be super tough and the best part is i cant do it i need a friend to do it for me. thot of asking keet or some of my bro's frens haiz, so much work. oh well im gunning merely for the sense of accomplishment. i'll put down a preview of the lyrics i wrote. trust me, with the tune its much nicer.

rugby match tmrw against some secondary sch students. gotta miss laser quest cos of tht. oh well just go la. it will prolly be a nice experience.

everything i worked towards is going down the drain. my control of my mouth, my temper, my ability to be a good listener and my smoking. all of its going down. alot to work on this holiday. but im gonna be a diff joel nxt year, just u wait and see.

i heard certain people are having problems. i wish i could help but alas, i cant it wud be too weird. maybe i shud wear a mask and a cape..... nah..... no1 in their right mind wud wanna see me in my underwear. haha. i bet u wont know who u r. but if u do. im here for you.

so take care guys. lemme just show u my song. if u wanna, just leave a tag. i'll get back to u.


Irrelevant Memories Of You (not being there)

heartbroken
So-heartbroken
thats what youuu have left me
heartbroken
so-heartbroken
turn around and just look, look at me



Four months,
how it feels so long
i wake up each morning and realise you're gone

each second, ticks so slow
Time is horrible to me,
you should already know



Gimme a reason, or gimme a sign
Show me whats on your mind
tell me how, i should feel
because this night mare is getting more real.
(x2)

yours sincerely,
Joel

p.s. nothing at all

3:12 AM

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