wassup guys. guess what. ur suppose to say what. say what la. say it! ok good.

well i guess the honeymoon period is over. i guess i would have lost my friends eventually. well it happened. jasmine is angry cos i kicked her bag. well its not that im too proud to apologize or anything. its so obvious that its my fault. but its just that its gonna happen anyway. the angry friends thing. might as well completely break off now and have her not talk to me than have her hate me.

im pretty sure she doesnt hate me, just abit pissed. hmmm for been ting she seems a tad irritated with me o.o but whatevs it is pretty much a sooner or later thing. so everyone hates me now =) its not the first time. prolly wont be the last. but hey. my life sux anyway so who cares right?

hmm so joel's no more in love, has no more real clique, is really really bad at rugby apparently, has almost everyone starting to get abit irritated with him. so you know how much my life really sux.

about the rugby thing. well i dunno wht happened. but i guess i just dont have the confidence. it could be cos im soft or i dont know how to tackle. maybe im just a big stinky pile of loser. haiz.

no my blog has not been hacked by a random stranger. this is what i really think abt myself. prolly worthless. right now i have a feeling tht if i die noone will cry. i wont try to change that. i will just accept it i guess. but i wish i was raised differently. had different characteristics. maybe then i would be loved. but not now. and possibly not ever.

its funny that when everything seems so shitty i dont feel like crying but i can cry over a dream. how dumb.

my tests have been pretty bad so far. i guess i have to study but i have no mood to. i just feel like lying down on my bed and rotting there if possible. the dust will slowly settle on me, and very soon ill be nothing but a pile of bones. haha that wud be great. but i guess thats not happening.

its really sad how my friend can don talk to me for kicking her bag but treat ppl she doesn't like with so much interest. it really hurts. but i guess its my fault. lol but i wont apologize cos this is prolly the push i need to move away from the clique. wen jie was really right. im causing more unhappy sad moments then happy ones. and this will be the end of it. i guess i should prolly remove 'his current clique' from his likes. cos there is really none now. but its too troublesome. perhaps if i have the energy ill do it later.

i seem to make a fool of myself alot these days. doesn't matter tho cos those ppl dont really know me. i find it a chore to always look like suave guy infront of everyone. haha so for me that will never happen. wonder how kiren does it? hmmmm....

anyway thanks for reading my blog. if u love me then i love u too. if u like me then i like u too. if u hate me then.... well thank u. and if ure awesome then stay awesome. ok thanks for reading! pls tag afterwards