i told my friend that i liked that girl today. the response was mellow at best. she seemed to have already saw this coming. i guess everyone pretty much has. thats why it hurts so much. cos every1 knows and makes a big rucus over such a small thing. woah a guy likes a girl.... that never happened before =.=

i got really really bored and sick of everything... i begun to decide i have to move on. so from now on im not gonna message her. chat with her normally and no more playing around. its time to move on!

though i feel its time to move on, my heart doesnt want to. as i fall asleep my heart screams for her. as i look at my phone, the empty inbox cries outloud to my soul. as i hear her talk about other guys, my eyes hide themselves beneath a viel of green

many of u will say that joel is a pussy for writing such things. well u can take ur views and shove it up ur ^ss. cos i don give a f*ck about what u say anymore.( thank been ting cos she doesnt like me using vulgarities)

if i could ever wind back the clock, i will somehow make sure the doctor says im sorry but ur baby doesn't have any emotions. he cant feel. why does God give us hearts if noone will love us? its like a 'gift' that keeps on giving

till now she doesn't know.i like it that way. as long as that remains unchanged my heart is only ripped out 50%. cos i can look at her normally and hang out with her normally. right now, thats all that i need to feel contented.

dont getme wrong,everytime she talks about another guy i still feel like finding him and bashing him till white brain juice drips or everytime i hear someone made her sad i feel like taking the person and hanging him/her upside down till his nose bleeds. but moving on means i can no longer feel that way. easier said then done right? haha i know. i know.

so thanks for reading my blog! i appreciate it. don be like sheqal and make sure u tag my blog if u read ok? thank you!


p.s. nope i totally dont like peyton. shes my friend and we will definitely stay tht way.