first of all guys, thanks for taggin.

today i was suddenly blinded by jealousy. i dunno what happened. i just suddenly felt like not talking anyone. and that i felt like bursting into tears. i really don wanna to talk abt today. but lemme tell u what it feels like.

imagine u care for a person so much it hurts. then suddenly they take u and carve ur heart out. it feels so empty inside, u cant feel anything but ur legs going numb and ur eyes starting to give way to tears. u struggle to regain ur composure and u message a friend just so u wont burst into tears

every inch of ur body wants to give up. but u refuse simply because u don wanna show her that u really care. in front of her u don care. u don feel anythk.(hence the url lol.) well it was shit.

i thot i finally got rid of all feelings. but it got me again. i must try harder guys T.T when i quit smokin there was no withdrawal symptoms. this love got me hard with the symptoms. but alas it doesn't matter. she wont love me anyway. she wont care, she wont do shit. shes not my girl shes not my best friend, shes not anythk.

shes not a lyric to a song, shes not the tingle in my skin when i feel a breeze, shes not the only thing i think about, so much so that i cant sleep. shes not anything anymore. shes soon gonna be a distant memory. i must do it. for myself. for me.

lol on a lighter note, i trashed wen jie at pool haha.

ok guys remb to post, but dont ever, stop being awesome =)