argued with been ting. sorta. i dunno. shes not replying my messages. i guess she hates me now. doesn't matter i guess. maybe just another person in line. trust me its a very long queue. what hurts is i tried very hard to be her fren. we just don seem to click.

wen jie told me tht our clique has its problems. like there are more troubled times than good times. i wish it wasn't the truth but its prolly cos of me. im destroying the clique. maybe i shud leave. haiz. i wudn't give them up as friends tho. i love them too much. but i think its time to get distant. i need to for them to remain my friends.

its hard now. everything seems like it needs my effort. my friendships, my crush, my studies. its a juggling act. and this juggler has grown a phobia of the balls he juggles. haiz what to do? i dunno. somebody save me~

my life seems like its on its last seam. ive been having really troubling dreams lately. there was one where i was sitting with jasmine in a bus. behind me was my crush and her ex boyfriend. i heard them talking like they love each other so much. i cudn't help it. my jealousy just grew so much. i cudnt even see straight. when our bus finally reached.me and jasmine got off. we went to a retaurant. jasmine ordered. while she and her ex stayed behind for some privacy. suddenly i got a call frm her. she asked me to order some stuff. but jasmine ardy ordered. i didnt know wht to do. tht when i woke up. i cried for awhile then i slept.

i was sad. very. prolly from the jealousy. ugh if tht ever happened in real life i dunno wht im gonna do. i dunno if i wud be able to control myself. haiz.

i seldom remember dreams. but this one seems imprinted in my mind. anyone got any theories on the dream? btw i didnt even talk to her on the day i got the dream.

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