so i have been goin on and on abt her.... nvr really blog abt my life. well i made jasmine and anling a card each to cheer them up ever since band got bronze.

i bought sheqal a boquet of flowers for his bday and some cadbury =) i love him! haha.

jasmine and i had a one on one lunch today. i feel that it let me understand her better =) such an awesome girl..... boyfriend better treat her well or else.... haha

aft that bumped into anling near bubble tea at west mall. wanted to give big edward a hug but got a mega nippleizer... but in the spirit of manliness i didn't give in and took in the entire 5 second nipplizer and hugged him. =)

so anyway heres something about a girl i dont like anymore. but its some stuff i wrote on a piece of paper while 'studying':

i cant understand why i love her. i know she'll never be mine. yet the simple lure of a better time draws me toward her. she will probably nvr know how i feel abt her. how i can do nothing and just wait by the phone for her replies. how i can think of a million reasons why she shudn't reply me. and more often then not she does. how i laugh when shes happy, cry when shes crying. stay silent when shes feeling depressed.

perhaps its her aura that draws me and her personality that locks me in. everyday that i do not see her is simply a toture. everytime i watch her walk away is like a petal of a rose falling to the floor and i know by the time it reaches the bud it will never be the same. i give my all to her yet she only lets me in just a lil.

just enough for me to scream for more but not too little to make sure i dont give up. she is a drug. shes my heroine. shes my estacy shes my ketamine. shes my life, shes my shadow, shes my emotions. yet at the same time im her nothing, im her insignificance im her leftovers.

its not enough for me to feel this way. perhaps it will be if she knew, but she will never, i will not allow it. forever i shall suffer in silence, looking at the elegant cloth float in the wind, screaming words of wisdom. but like the cloth, she will not listen, she will not hear, she will not notice me. for like the fragile cloth, to her, i do not matter.


hahhahahahah. stupid right.... that was like 2nd may. like wtf la =.= glad i moved on or i will be like above. as long as i can hold out, i will never be the same =.=

ok so i let u guys read a really personal thing of mine.... which my mom almost saw. thank the heavens she didnt!HAHA so anyway i let u read smthn really personal so do me a favor can?

tag after reading pls! but most importantly.... stay awesome =)