hey all. thnx for reading yea? i really love it when u guys read. keeps me going.

I don get it u guys? y cant i feel the way i did in sec sch? i had only a few frens but it all seems blissful enough. nowadays its just worry worry worry, emo emo emo, mood out mood out mood out and then play srinis mother. it gets really tiresome.

Wanna know what it feels like in class for me now? i turn to srini and i play his mother, he plays mine. i laugh, he laughs. its all like a dream, complete with the cloudy-dreamstyle frame. but as soon as the laughter stops and i turn around and then it all fades away instantaneously. my frame melts away. the sides slowly start to darken. i don see any good side to anything. i see the ppl ignoring me, avoiding me. i see that i dont know who to trust. i look around and then realise theres noone beside me. i then turn to the front. put my head down and hope to never see that again. EVER. but i always see it again. whenever i look up, whenever i stop laughing.

WHAT THE FUCK CAN I DO??? i try not to let it get me down. the daoness and shit. but its not fucking working la. i dunno sia. what can i do? haiz now its the perfect time for song 3 on my blog. save me by remy zero

Thanks for reading guys. stay awesome